I don’t want to be childless, so I will have to be single

This isn’t something I’ve thought about for two days, but something I have thought about for years. <br>I can’t have children on my own, and I realize this is my fault. But I don’t care. I will never give up being the mother of my children. <br>I’m not going to give up who I am for this. I can’t. <br>I don’t want to be a singleton. I want to be a mother. Not to dogs, not to cats, not to a lonely life. Not to friends or extended family or friends I have known for my whole life, but my own flesh and blood. <br>I don’t want a man to be the procreator, I don’t want to be a man’s partner who just so happens to be a mother. I want to be two of the three parents of my children. <br>I can’t have children on my own. I know this. But I will have children. It just means I will never be in a relationship. <br>I would rather be a single mother than a childless wife. That’s not a choice. It’s just a fact.