A glimpse into a chubby woman’s mind

I was thinking about something..I’ve been trying to lose weight for a while now, but it’s not working..and I just wanna be confident.<br>I’m not gonna lie, it hurts, when I pass by women, that are prettier than me, I start hating myself more and more, and my mind’s being invaded by thoughts of me being useless.<br>I just want to be able to walk down a street without looking at a beautiful woman and being jealous of her. I want to be beautiful and feel like I am.<br>I’m probably being paranoid, I have a lovely boyfriend, that never made me feel bad about myself, I want to feel beautiful for him and for myself..I feel guilty for feeling bad about myself..I feel like women are supposed to be pretty, but I’m not..and that I’m a disappointment.<br>I have a lot of insecurities and a lot of other things on my mind, but I just want to be confident and pretty..<br>I know this post is weird, and I’m sorry, but this place makes me feel like I’m home, and people are lovely so I thought I should share..<br><br>The point is, I want to be pretty and I feel like I’m not..<br>I want to be confident and I’m not..<br>I’m trying to lose weight, but I feel like I’m gonna fail and once I’ll give up and hate myself even more.