18th birthday spent in solitude I like it here

Pretty soon in a few hours I'll be 18. <br><br>A year ago I would've been hyped to be turning 18 but I'm not. Not because it's bad luck, I think that's ridiculous. But I know that everything will change. My parents will try to make me get a job and I'll have to pretend to be happy and excited. It's obnoxious.<br><br>18th birthday post covid lockdown I thought I'd have something to do with my friends. But I don't. I'm in my bedroom by myself. No birthday party. No friends. I'm working in a few hours. I'm trying to forget it but it's not working. I remember last year when I turned 17. I remember being excited for this age. I had plans to go to New York or visit one of my cousins but now it's all destroyed. I'm in my room. I'm not going anywhere.