Pennies, nickels, and pennies again

My family and I have been struggling lately. My husband is unemployed and I have anxiety and depression and can't work more. Both of those things are not the biggest problems, the biggest problem is that I spend all my money as soon as I get it. I have anxiety attacks that make me want to buy things. Naturally I have to stop myself from buying, because our money would quickly run out. The worst thing is that we still spend all of our money and I don't even have anything to show for it.<br><br>So I need to stop spending. After all, this is a problem caused by myself and it's only up to me to solve it. And I've come up with a way...<br><br>From now on, I'm going to get rid of every cent that comes into my hands. The thought alone scares me and makes me want to throw up. I have to get rid of every cent as soon as I get it. Naturally I have to stop myself from buying, but that won't be enough. I have to take it a step further. I have to get rid of everything I own.<br><br>I can get rid of the money by spending it on things we need, like food, or paying some of our debt off. The money that stays with us will be locked up and won't come near me at all.<br><br>I'll get rid of things we own, clothes, books, utensils, appliances that we don't need like a coffee maker. I'll donate it, throw it away, or sell it. I'll empty everything to get rid of the anxiety and depression that comes with money.<br><br>I'll slow down and think more. I'll think about every move I make, every decision, every word, everything. I won't move. The only change will be from spending to not spending. I'll be careful with every transaction. I'll count every penny and make sure we're not overspending.<br><br>I'll find ways to earn more money. I won't just sit back and wait for money to come. I'll take action to get money. It's hard, but I can do it, I have to do it.<br><br>My struggle with money is a journey and it will take some time to get back on track. But I'll get there. The money will run out, but I'll find ways to get more. And when it does, I'll be ready to face it and succeed.