I can’t let my busy self try to multitask because I instantly get an existential crisis

”Here, I’ll just put on a podcast and clean” <br><br>Honestly I’m too lazy to clean but when I’m cleaning it always feels like a”Here’s your whole life” Usually I’m too much in the zone to notice, but when multitasking, I’m like “this is it, this is life” <br><br>I can’t really explain, but just the current moment is really, really all there is. I can’t really go back to the past or go to the future. I’m too in the moment. In that moment, if I’m multitasking, I feel like I’m letting myself down, because I’m thinking “This is it. This is the moment. If you’re going to live, live now”.