The most hardcore thing I’ve ever done in my life

In the spring of 2023, I booked a ticket from Toronto to Australia. I had no idea why I did it nor how I was going to pay for a trip to Australia. I had $15 in my account and that was it. I was going to go anyway.<br><br>I did research on how to work in Australia, I listened to hours and hours of podcasts up until the day I left. How would I actually make it this far? I had no money and no clue what I was doing. I was going to go anyway.<br><br>I landed in Australia and since the day I landed, I’ve been doing everything on my own. I got on the airport bus “express” (it was not an express lol) but I eventually made it to my new home. I had no clue where I was within the city. I was scared, I was lonely and I called 911. I had no idea of where to start. I had never been in a situation like this before. I called the crisis center and told them I was feeling suicidal. They said, “Sorry, you’re too far away for us to come to you. Please call 911 for help.” Okay so I call 911 and they said they can’t come to me either. I said please just come to me, I am severely disabled and can’t leave where I am. I’m too scared to leave. She said, “Okay I’ll send someone.” I was surprised she agreed to send someone to me.<br><br>I sat on the side of the road in Sydney while I waited. I cried. I was so scared. I didn’t have money for a hotel because I had spent it on a bus ticket. I still had no clue if I was going to make it at all. I still had no idea if I was going to be able to stay. I was going to stay anyway. I sat at a cross walk for 30 minutes or so while I waited for 911 to arrive when 2 police officers showed up. I asked them for directions to the nearest bus station and told them I was feeling suicidal. They said, “Sorry we can’t help you if you’re suicidal. You have to call the crisis center.” I told them I called and she sent me here. They said that I had to go to the hospital and asked if I would like them to drive me to the hospital. I said yes please. I got in the car and they drove me to the hospital. I was treated while I was there and I was finally able to get some sleep.<br><br>I had no clue how I was going to work in Australia. I didn’t have any money and all I had was my suitcase. I was scared. I was alone. But I was going to make it anyway. This is when I met Jen, my savior. She took me in and said, “You can stay with me until you figure out your next move. Let me show you around.” She took me to the city and showed me how to catch the buses, showed me where the nearest grocery store was. She showed me around and pointed out all the clubs and bars. I was so excited. The next day she had work and asked if I would “babysit” her daughter. I said yes and she said, “Take her to the mall, take her to the park. Show her around the city. We’ll pick you up and go out after work.” I did exactly that with her daughter. We had so much fun and I was so happy. When Jen was done, she picked us up and took us to eat out. I was so happy and I told her I had just been thinking about how happy I am. She said, “You know, there’s this one street that is full of nightclubs and one of the clubs is called “ivy.” I said, “I’m going to get a job there.” She said, “I don’t think so” (because I’m deaf). I said, “No, I’m going to get a job there.” I was going to get a job there no matter what. I was going to make it anyway. She and her daughter dropped me off at my new home and I said, “I have to go to the city so I can walk down that street and find ivy. I have to go up there and apply.” I didn’t have money for a bus ticket. I didn’t have money to eat. I was hungry and scared and I had no clue how I was going to get there. I was going to get there anyway. I asked people for “loose change” and 2 of the women gave me $5 and said, “This $5 I’m giving you, I want you to use it to eat. You’re so lucky I’ll give you this.” The other woman asked me for directions, handed me the money and I still have the coin she gave me. I had no clue how I was going to get to the city. I was so scared but I was going to get there anyway. I took the bus and when I arrived, I immediately walked to ivy. I went inside and the manager immediately told me, “Sorry, we don’t hire disabled people.” Sorry? I’m sorry? I said, “No, I’m going to get a job here.” He said, “Sorry, you’re deaf. It won’t work.” I said, “No, I’m going to get a job here.” He said, “Okay, follow me.” I had no clue what he was saying, I just knew he was going to take me somewhere. I got a job and I worked there every day. I had no clue how I was going to pay for rent. I had no clue how I was going to eat. I had no clue how I was going to survive but I was going to do it anyway. I eventually moved in with Jen and her daughter and they made me feel like I was home. We had things to trade and they had money to give me here and there so I could eat. I eventually got a second job at the grocery store. I had no clue how to apply. I couldn’t hear to talk to the manager. I had no clue if they would hire me. I had no clue if they would let me work there. But I was going to work there anyway. I went to the grocery store and asked an employee to show me to the manager. They said, “Okay, I’ll show you to the manager.” When I talked to the manager, I had no clue I got the job so I went home and cried. I’m not going to get a job. It’s not going to work out. I’m deaf. I’m disabled. I won’t make it. I won’t be able to do it. I called 911 and told them I was feeling suicidal. I called the crisis center and told them I was feeling suicidal. I called for help. When the person came to help, I told them I got a job at the grocery store and the ivy bar. I walked to the grocery store the next day and showed them my resume. They said, “Oh, you’re that girl who came yesterday. Yes, we would love to have you on our team.” I had no clue how I was going to get to work. I didn’t have money for the bus. I had no clue if I could afford to pay for rent. I had no clue how I was going to survive. I was going to make it anyway. <br><br>Jen and her daughter let me stay with them the rest of the month. I asked if I could stay longer until I could afford to get my own place. She said, “Of course you can stay longer. We’re your family now.” I had no clue how I was going to survive or how I was going to make it. I just knew I was going to anyway.<br><br>After my first paycheck, I paid my rent. I was so happy. I was so proud of myself. I had no clue how I was going to get to work. I had no clue how I was going to pay for food. I had no clue if I was going to make it but I knew I was going to anyway. <br><br>I said from the beginning, I’m going to make it anyway. I’m going to make it anyway. And I did. I’m so proud of the person I have become. I’m so proud of how I overcame those obstacles. I’m so proud of how I worked at 2 jobs. I’m so proud of how I made it. I’m going to make it anyway.