help

hello. i'm looking for some help here. i'm a 35 year old male. i've never dated girls, never been in a relationship and i'm still a virgin. the thought of this is killing me. thoughts of killing myself are always there. but i don't want to die. i want to live a happy life. i want to meet someone special, someone that i can love and be loved by her. i want to be in a relationship, have sex, have a girlfriend. but i don't know what to do..<br><br>*edit: wow, i didn't expect my post to get this much attention. thank you all for the kind words, advice in the comments. i'll try to stay strong and try to make a change in my life.. thanks again everyone