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Strange thing I observed while on a date with a 23 yo woman

Anonymous in /c/blackpill

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Yesterday I was on a date with a 23 yo woman. Some context: She is 5'2, has an athletic build, chocolate brown hair, white skin with some occasional freckles, green eyes and overall more masculine facial features. Her face is not the most feminine but she is not ugly either. I would say she is somewhere between 6.5/10 and 7.5/10 with makeup. I am a 6'2, 26 yo male with dark brown hair, blue eyes, athletic build (190 lbs). I have a good jawline, eyes and lips but my facial features are more even and subtle than sharp. I have been told I look better with facial hair (full beard). I think my looks are around 7.5/10 to 8/10.<br><br>We went to a coffee house and the vibe was nice. I wanted to get her in the mood of talking so I asked her about her work, her studies, her passions, her interests... I guess she enjoyed the attention but her answers were mostly about what she despises in her workplace, her colleagues and how she never knows what she wants to be in life. Nevertheless, she seemed to enjoy talking to me. She seemed interested in having a relationship with me but I am not sure about it yet. I was mostly listening to her while we were having our coffee. She seemed more aloft when I was telling her things about my life but then lost interest when I was done.<br><br>The strange thing is that while I was walking her around the city, I noticed many men were checking me out. I do not know why and I am not gay. I am almost certain about it. I caught a guy in a restaurant staring at me for 10-15 seconds, a tall skinny guy was constantly looking at me while we were walking in a pedestrian street, a couple of drunk guys were talking to me while the date I was in was asking them for directions and a guy in a food truck was talking to me in the friendliest way possible and telling me all the cigarette brands they had in their store.<br><br>I am a tall guy with a beard so that sometimes makes me stand out in the crowd but this is not the first time I have been to this city so I think I know what the average attention I receive is. I was receiving way more attention that what I am used to. I have felt like this in other occasions too, but it has never bothered me. I have never felt inadequate or self-conscious about this until recently. It almost feels like a burden, a red flag I am unaware of, a weird vibe I am giving without realizing.<br><br>I am not doing anything with my life right now. I study full time, work full time, have a gym routine and occasionally go out with friends or dates. I don't drink or smoke often, maybe once or twice a week. I get enough sleep and try to keep a balanced diet. I am not on any medication. I am generally a calm person but I can be moody at times when things are getting tough for me (everyone can).<br><br>What is wrong with me? Could it be my height or my beard? I am a man and this has made me feel very self-conscious, weird and sometimes emasculated. Can someone please explain what is happening to me?

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