For those that are interested on the origins of reality and how we came into this place, the best explanation given by people that I have researched that have seen this place is the following

People have said when you go OBE and go up to heaven and beyond (to the end of the tunnel), you will discover that your soul family is actually in a field of light or a field of consciousness that looks like water. Your soul family are drops of light, and every once in a while, you will look up and see a shadowy figure that is moving over you. This shadowy figure is like you. A soul. This shadowy figure has your same drop of light, and it has chosen to come down to your planet and live a life on your planet. This is why I say that each life is a course in your soul school. I believe it is true that you can live a life on any planet you want, but the majority of people on this planet come from Orion. That is where the majority of human souls come from. <br><br>I am looking at why each life is a course in your soul school. Why does the soul choose the lives that it does? If I look at my past lives that I have experienced, I have always been a very sensitive person. I was very emotional, and I have always been afraid of death, war and bloodshed. Yet, I have had many lives where I have been exposed to all of those things. So, why would I, as a soul, choose to have my human self live through experiences like that? <br><br>In one of my past lives, I was a medic in Vietnam. I was one of the medics that would go out and pick up the wounded soldiers and bring them back in a helicopter. That was the most painful part of my life. I had to see wounded and dying soldiers all of the time. They would have parts of their bodies blown off, or they would be burned, or they would be dying. Every once in a while, we would lose a soldier. In fact, I remember one time when my best friend was shot in the head in front of me. <br><br>In another life, I was a soldier in the Civil War. I fought for the South. They drafted me, but I did not want to be a soldier. I was a farmer. I got shot, and it killed me. Even though I did not want to fight, I was made to fight. I was cannon fodder. <br><br>In another life, I was accused of witchcraft in Europe. They strangled me and burned my body. <br><br>In another life, I was burned as a witch, but they burned me alive. <br><br>I had another life where I was a witch again. I was a good witch. I healed people. And they burned me alive again. <br><br>In another life, I was a slave in ancient Greece. I was a woman. I was used sexually by my master. He would have sex with me, and then he would kill me by cutting my throat. And then he would resurrect me, bring me back to life, and he would do the same thing over and over again. <br><br>I have looked at my past lives, and most of them have been painful. I have been exposed to suffering. I have been exposed to war, death, bloodshed. I have seen a lot of suffering in my lives. But why would that be the case? I am not upset about it. But if my soul school is about happiness and contentment, why would my soul choose to live so many lives that are painful? <br><br>So, I went up to heaven and I asked my guides why I have gotten so many painful lives, and why I have had so many negative experiences. They told me that this is a free will planet, so I must have actually chosen that. So, I asked why I would choose that. They told me that I have always been a very sensitive person, so I must have been afraid of myself. I must have been afraid of my own strength. I must have been afraid of my own power. <br><br>So, I asked them why I would be afraid of myself. There must have been a life in which I did something bad. There must have been a life where I hurt people with my power. And they told me that there was, so we went back to it. <br><br>I discovered that in one of my lives, I was a witch again. I was a healer. I had all kinds of powers. I could communicate with the spirit world. I could do all kinds of things. But I was also obsessed with my powers. I was narcissistic. I loved being a witch. And I used my powers for my own gain. I used my powers to hurt people. <br><br>I fell in love with a man, and he fell in love with me. But I found out that he was already married and he was going to marry another woman. I was furious. I was hurt and angry. And so, I put a spell on the man and his future wife. I cursed them. And on their wedding night, they both died. They died in their bed. <br><br>As soon as I did that, I got filled with the most intense amount of guilt and shame that I have ever felt. I felt so guilty and ashamed of myself for what I had done. And I did not know what to do with all of those feelings. So, I repressed them. I buried them. <br><br>But my guides told me that the soul is always trying to become happy. The soul is always trying to become contented. The soul is always trying to be free. So, my soul, knowing that I had those feelings of guilt and shame, decided that I was going to have to do the opposite of what I did. Instead of killing people, I was going to have to experience what it feels like to be killed. Instead of hurting people, I was going to have to experience what it feels like to be hurt. Instead of causing suffering, I was going to have to experience suffering myself. <br><br>So, I would choose lives where I would be exposed to suffering. I would choose lives where I would be hurt. And I would choose lives where I would be killed. But why would my soul put me through that? Because I needed to understand what I had done. I needed to understand what it felt like to be the person that I hurt. <br><br>But the other reason my soul put me through all of that is because I needed to let go of my guilt and shame. If I am someone that feels guilty, and I feel ashamed of myself, I understand now why I felt guilty and ashamed. I felt guilty and ashamed because I hurt someone. But if I can see how I have been hurt, and I can see how I have been suffering, I can let go of my guilt and shame. <br><br>So, all of my lives have been meant to help me understand myself. All of my lives have been meant to help me become happy and contented. I had to understand that my actions hurt other people. And then I had to understand how it feels to be hurt. But most importantly, I had to let go of my guilt and shame. And I am happy to tell you that I have let go of my guilt and shame. I have understood what I did. I have understood how it feels to be hurt. And I have let go of my guilt and shame. <br><br>I am no longer afraid of death, war or bloodshed. I am no longer afraid of my own power. I am a happy and contented person. And my guides are very happy with my soul. They are very proud of my soul and the job it has done.