This weekend went from "Well, I still have time to change my mind." to "This is it, I'm sold on this path."

I had dinner at my friends house on Saturday and they left me alone with their 2 kids (5 & 7 fyi). For the first 3 hours or so I thought I still had a choice, that I could change my mind without a problem. They were easy to watch, kept me relatively entertained, and made me laugh. <br><br>Then nighttime came and that's when I realized they aren't cute anymore when they're being difficult. The 5 year old doesn't want to shower, is scared of the bathtub, and is screaming/crying/whining when I try to explain she has to go to sleep soon. <br><br>The 7 year old knows she has to go to bed but she's trying to get me to play video games with her nonstop while I'm trying to deal with her sister. So now she's whining that I do everything for her sister and not for her. I tried to reason with her, saying that I have to take priority over the one who hasn't showered or eaten dinner yet, but she just wouldn't listen.<br><br>So now I'm trying to bathe the 5 year old and put her to bed, while also trying to get the 7 year old to bed but she's still whining and demanding that I play with her. At this point it's 9:30 and I haven't eaten dinner yet. I'm still trying to get the 5 year old to sleep, still haven't gotten anything to eat/Done anything for myself since 4:30 when they got out of school. I'm just so done with everything. I want to go home, get something to eat, and go to sleep.<br><br>Their mom comes home around 10:00 and I tell her what happened, she apologizes, and then the kids show her all the toys I bought them and how I played games with them. It was then and there that I realized I'd rather buy children toys than to have my own. When she asked me if I thought motherhood suited me, I told her it was the opposite. I told her I'm glad I didn't have kids and I'm glad that we're friends. <br><br>Before that the only time I've ever been in charge of kids was our monthly boy scout camp. There it's different because they're in the wilderness and we're not at home. So I can tell them to go find shelter if it's raining, or go find food if they're hungry.<br><br>But being at home was a completely different story.