I had to kill my dog today

I'm 19 years old, my bulldog is 2 years old. She's the love of my life, I don't know what I'd do without her. A few months ago I took her to the vet for a check up. They told me she had some issues with her skull, where her sinuses are, very small, so she has trouble breathing.<br><br>I've never been so hopeless in my life, I've had her since she was a puppy.<br><br>This morning I woke her up late again, she usually sleeps until 10am, but today she woke up at 11am. I took her outside, and she was having trouble breathing, not as much as I've seen before, but it was a lot. I took her inside, gave her some treats, and she was okay. I went to the kitchen to make some food, and she started whining, and she fell onto her side. I came to her, petted her, and gave her treats. She was shaking, she looked scared, and she was breathing really fast.<br><br>I knew she didn't have much time. I took her outside, laid on my back, and she laid on top of me. I petted her, rubbed her head, and sang her some of her favorite songs.<br><br>Today was my birthday, I turned 20 years old.<br><br>She was gone in a matter of minutes, right on top of me.<br><br>I'm writing this on my phone, inside a tent on the beach with my dad. Why am I here? Because I had to dig a hole for my dog in our backyard, and I buried her.<br><br>One of the last things I said to her was "I'm sorry."<br><br>I'm sorry that I couldn't help you more. I'm sorry that I didn't spend more time with you. I'm sorry that you're gone.<br><br>She was more than just a pet to me, she was my companion, and my best friend.