Just spent the last 10 years with a Meth addicted boyfriend. How do I get my life back?

I'm 30 now and I have spent the last 10 years of my life with a man I loved. He had a drug habit when we met but has been to rehab a few times and was mostly pretty ok. I love him and wanted to stand by him and be there for him. In the past year, his use has really gotten out of control. He has been in rehab for the last 5 months and I am a bit at a loss as to what to do with myself. I was a very good girlfriend. I stood by him when he was on weeks long benders and I was there for him when he came home and was clean. I always had full time employment and I also had 2 part time jobs to keep the bills paid and the heat on and food on the table. I would cook for him and clean up after him and do everything to be there to support him so that he could be the best he could be. I would let him go on his benders so that he could have some time alone and then I would take off on vacation and he would have another week alone. The last time he came home from a trip was a turning point for me, though. <br><br>He came home beat up so bad that he needed to be admitted to the hospital and he damn near died. He also spent that entire week missing and I was sick with worry and deeply afraid that he was dead. When he came home and they told me that he needed to go in to rehab immediately I told him he could go alone because I was not going to be there any more. He tried and tried to get me to go with him but I had already decided that he wasn't worth my time anymore and his lies and broken promises were nothing compared to the promises I had made to myself.<br><br>I still love him and I sometimes miss him terribly and I'm not sure that I can handle being alone for the rest of my life without him. I know that I am a catch and I also know that he isn't good for me. I am still confused, sometimes, and I am leaning towards a breakup but I know I am so very much more happy when I'm by myself. I got a new dog and I'm trying to do more of the things that I love, but I'm having a hard time finding my way back to being an independent woman after a decade of putting my life second to his addiction.<br><br>How do I get my life back? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.<br><br>tl;dr; I love a man with an addiction and after a decade, I am trying to get my life back but I'm not sure where to start.