Super short update. I'm getting there slowly but surely.

Im now more confident about my decision to break up with my ex. A few months ago when i did and even a few weeks ago I would have been like yeah i broke up with her so damn good for me if you watched the video. <br><br>But now i feel relieved i can move on from this mess of a relationship. It's been so long since we had a loving and caring relationship. I even get 5 min talks with my dad. I can't believe i was willing to spend the rest of my life with someone who barely even cared about me and usually ignored me.<br><br>It's still scary. I have nothing, not even a little bit of money. I don't have a car, a drivers license, a passport to travel and I don't want to travel. Im so freaked out about the future. But for the first time in almost 2 years i feel excited to take control of my life.<br><br>I didn't expect for me to be this relieved about my decision. I feel like i can actually live my life now. I can live every day to the fullest. Not just in a relationship, not just for my ex, but for me and my life itself. <br><br>I just needed to vent.