Me [26M] with my (ex)gf [28F]

Throwaway account for obvious reasons. This just happened some 18 hours ago (we were together for 2.5 years, lived together) and I'm still in shock. We had a few issues lately like she was getting fat (I told her I was attracted to her slender figure and she just shrugged it off) and I had to do most of the chores.<br><br>Now to the interesting part:<br><br>I woke up, turned off the alarm and saw that she was already up. I went to the bathroom and there was a piece of paper on it. I thought it was a love note but.....<br><br> milieu(“…this is goodbye forever, you’re better off without me, I’m not the gf you deserve, you should find a younger one, you don’t know life’s value, you are priceless and you will find somebody that loves you, I’m sorry for the pain I caused you, you will always have a place in my heart, (some random quotes like «you are my today and my forever»)”<br><br>I panicked and searched for her everywhere til I found her at a nearby park. Shaking, crying and begging me to come with her. I didn’t understand what was happening (I confess that I didn’t read the whole note) and I asked what was happening. She told she had an interview in Barcelona and if she got the job she would leave. I was in shock. She was from that city but moved to my hometown. We talked and she said that she missed her mum and she had to grow up and be a woman. I was devastated. I told her that even if she left I could endure the long distance relationship and fly to see her in the weekends. She told me that she didn’t want to leave me but she just had to.<br><br>I told her that I was not gonna leave her and went back home. She followed me and I noticed that she had packed her whole room up. I flipped and told her that if she left she wasn’t welcome anymore. She started crying and begging me to go with her. I told her I couldn’t because I had a good job here and my family was here. I asked her if she was gonna leave me for good and she said yes. At this point I was shaking, I didn’t know what to do, she was packing the car and I just sat on the floor along with my dog and cried.<br><br>While she left I didn’t say anything. I’m not gonna lie, I’m devastated. I’m better off without her right? I feel like I just died. Does it get better? I don’t wanna be alone. Am I in a mental state to hook up with someone else?<br>Sorry if this is too long and the grammar/spelling is not perfect, English is not my first language.