Should I totally just stop pretending I'm going to have any close friends in my life ever again?

It feels like I'm perpetually pretending I'm going to have stuff to do, people to hang out with, and a chance to escape my loneliness any more than I do. It's been a stretch of no close friends I can think of lasting for quite a while by now. I guess there are too many social issues, too much anxiety and a lack of understanding on how it all works that leads to constant isolation. I've had moments where I thought that was all changing, but it's been going on for awhile now.