I hate my mother.

She's a fucking monster, I hate her to death. Everytime I see her or talk to her, I feel sick. She's torturing me, I want her to die.<br><br>She never cared about me all my life, she never showed me any love. She raised me to solely serve her and my father and siblings. I had to do ALL the house chores without any help. I was 11 when I started cooking, I burned my hands, cut them with knives and broken glass, but my mother made me continued cooking even though I was injured. I was 15 when I started washing our clothes by hand, the water was cold and I was sick for a month but my mother didn't care, she made me do it again. I was 17 when I started doing grocery shopping alone, I walked home with the bags for 2 hours, I was freezing my ass off for 1 hour when it snowed because of her. <br><br>She forced me to study sciences in high school and medicine in university, I didn't want to, but she didn't give a damn. I'm not smart and I hate studying but my mother want me to be a doctor, she want to brag about me to her friends. She would call me stupid and dumb if I don't listen to her. I want to be a singer not a doctor. I love singing more than my life. I would kill myself if I can't sing. I can't live without it. But my mother hate the idea. She said it's a waste of time, that I'm not good enough and I'll starve to death if I become a singer. My mother even threatened to leave the house if I don't obey her. I'm 22 and my mother still don't allow me to go to karaoke alone, I'm not allowed to attend concerts, I'm not allowed to join a band. I'm not allowed to sing in front of anyone. I'm depressed. No one care about me. Only my mother, she care about me so much it hurt. <br><br>I hate her, but I still love her deep down. But I would love to strangle her if I have the chance and I would not regret it. I'm ready to rot in hell for that.