Just watched a video of my friends that died because of heroin and it made me cry.

This is my first time posting and I know this is a depressed sub for some but I’m feeling down and I wanted to talk. I feel like I’ve been waiting forever for my friends to text me back and I realize it’s not happening. I just watched a video of them talking and laughing and all I can do is cry. They had been sober from heroin for a few years now but it still hurt me. I wish I could go back in time and change any decision that would have changed their future. I’m hurting a lot these days.