Anyone else feeling like they dodged a whole bunch of bullets in their 20s?

I'm 40 now. I'm an alpha, always have been. I was married to my HS sweetheart for 15 years, part of that overlapped with my 20s, and we had a few good years of marriage mixed in with a bunch of bad ones before she cheated and I had to kick her dumb ass out. My son is the light of my life, but his mom is a fucking idiot and I was an idiot to marry her.<br><br>I started drinking heavily at 19 and for a few years it was the best time of my life, but it quickly turned into the worst few years of my life. I gotDT'd and had to spend a few years getting my shit together.<br><br>The reason I bring it up is because I've been seeing a 25 y/o woman who is an absolute knockout. She comes from a good family, has a good job, and is intelligent and funny as hell. I've been having a good time with her, but during a few conversations she has dropped some hints that she wants to settle down and have kids. I told her I already went down that road and I'm not doing it again. She's been hinting that she wants to get married, but she has never actually come out and stated it.<br><br>Yesterday she called me and told me she found a lump in her breast and that she's scared. I'm a dick, I told her that sucks and hung up on her. I don't know if she'll call back and say "gotcha", but I assume she will at some point. I'm not going to take her to the doctor or sit with her and hold her hand while she's scared, because I just met her a few months ago. I'm not that invested in her.<br><br>I've been hearing a bunch of stories about men my age who are getting divorced, having their wives walk away with most of their assets, and I just can't help but think how happy I am that I dodged that bullet, after bullet, after bullet, after bullet. I'm a bit of a prick, but I'm also self-aware enough to know that I'm a good guy and I don't deserve to have my life ruined by some woman who thinks she's doing the right thing, but in the end is only doing what she thinks is best for 1, herself. I'm not a religious guy, but I really do believe that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. I've had a lot of bad shit happen to me, but I've also had a lot of good shit happen. The good doesn't out weigh the bad, but it balances the scales.