I want out of my life.

****Fuck this goddamned life.**** <br><br>I just found out that I am going to have to go on some stupid ass boot camp thing in the middle of July that will pretty much decide my future. I am fucking petrified. What if I don't make it through? I am a failure, I have always been a failure. I have been held back, I am in remedial classes, I have never been good at anything. I will fail, I will never make it, and I just want out. I want to die, I want to just fucking end it all. I just want out, I want my life to be over. I don't want to deal with this anymore, I don't want to stress about this anymore. <br><br>I am a failure, I just want to die. <br><br>****That is all.****