I'm female and I can't stand men

I've always been the kind of person who felt like I was a feminist, I care about women's rights and stuff like birth control and reproductive freedom but I felt like it was a little extreme to just categorically hate men. That's what I felt like I was picking up from the women in this sub, that they just flat out hated men.<br><br>I (F19) was raped in my sleep last night, by a guy (M19) who was (and is) one of my closest guy friends. He's been my buddy for years and he's always been nice to me and I trusted him. We've been quarantining together and he's been sleeping on my couch. He used to do this all the time but he didn't start again after quarantine started so I thought he stopped. I woke up to having sex (with a condom, thank god) and I was so groggy that it took me a while to figure out what was happening. I accused him of assaulting me and he said "I thought you were okay with it" and I said "I've never slept with you before, what made you think I was okay with it?" And he said "oh, well you're not a virgin anymore, you're not that shy" and I said "that doesn't matter, I'm still not okay with it!" and he said "sorry," like it was nothing. I left in the middle of night, went to my boyfriend's parents house (my boyfriend lives with his family because they're not financially stable enough to support him independently) and when I accused him of it again he got in my face and said "you're making too big of a deal out of this! I said I was sorry, stop being dramatic." I left again, this time to my grandmother's house. I called my boyfriend (he's been quarantining with his family) and he said to give me a minute to think it over before I tried to get him to press charges.<br><br>Then I told my (F48) mom and she said I was being dramatic too. "You were already dating your boyfriend, it's not like your virginity was gone. Stop playing the victim." My dad (M47) said "well you left him, don't talk to him anymore." Neither of my parents cared that their daughter got raped. My boyfriend said "well your parents are your best parenting authorities, they know better than I do. If they don't think it's a big deal, then it's not." That hurt me so much, I was relying on him to get me to go to the police and now he also thinks I'm being dramatic. I would have felt more comfortable going alone than now, with literally no one believing me.<br><br>I feel like men can just do whatever they want to me and get away with it because they don't take me seriously. I feel like it's just expected because I'm a woman, to just let men do what they want. I'm fucking furious. I'm angry and hurt and I feel like I can't say I was wronged. I'm just... so fucking angry.