This sub took me down a rabbit hole that almost ended my life

Hi all, I've never posted here before but wanted to tell you a brief story about how dangerous this sub can be.<br><br>This is not intended as a "drugs are bad" thing, I'm not against drugs, I'm not against coping, I'm against the fact that this sub and similar ones almost ended my life.<br><br>I've been a passive observer of this sub for a few years, reading about people's experiences here and there, and every now and then I'd see something that looked "fun" and decide to give it a try. I'd like to preface this with the fact that I'm a very impulsive person, and sometimes it's a blessing and sometimes a curse.<br><br>About 2 years ago I read a few posts about a drug called dmt, I was unfamiliar at the time and decided to do some research, I read dozens of posts on and off this sub about people's experiences with dmt, the vast majority of them seemed positive and it all sounded so fun and magical. I'm not going to lie, I was tempted by this drug for months but never had access to it, it was super rare in my area and I wasn't exactly an experienced drug user, but this was something I wanted to try so badly.<br><br>Fast forward a few months and it was the summer before my senior year of college, I had access to dmt for the first time and little did I know my life was about to change forever.<br><br>It was a very hot summer morning, I was two weeks sober after my first trip to rehab for a bunch of other substances, I was feeling super anxiety free and had a day off from work. I had 2b hit of dmt, I decided to smoke that big hit and I was instantly transported to another dimension, I felt like I was on another planet high in the stratosphere, it was so trippy, I felt very cold and very hot at the same time, I saw aliens and dinosaurs, it was so crazy.<br><br>But as fun as that first trip was, I didn't stop there, I took hit after hit, smoking more than 10g of dmt by the end of the day, I didn't sleep that night, I had little to no water during this whole binge, the next morning I had a massive anxiety attack, I ended up going to the hospital, I couldn't stop shaking and my mind was racing, my body hurt so much and I couldn't even stand up without wanting to pass out, I had no idea what was happening to me or how long it would last .<br><br>The rest of the week was a blur, I remember every thing just moving so fast and I couldn't focus on anything, my heart was racing, I couldn't sleep, and I was constantly having panic attacks, I felt like I was going crazy, I remember crying in public and just losing all control of my faculties, I couldn't even work or do anything normal.<br><br>I ended up having to go back to rehab, I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder, schizophrenia, and a bunch of other shit, and still since that day I haven't been able to get my brain right, I lost my license because my seizures are so bad and frequent. I lost my friends because I couldn't stop talking about dmt and how cool it was, I became a total pariah, it's been 2 years and I still haven't found a real job since then.<br><br>I didn't post this to scare people off dmt, but I wanted to paint a more realistic picture of what the dmt experience can look like, I know people will still try it but I want you to do your research, know your body, know your dosage, know the risks, be prepared to ruin your life forever.<br><br>Edit:<br><br>I wanted to update everyone on the comments, thank you all for the support and I appreciate all the kind words, I didn't post this for sympathy and I'm sorry if I came off that way.<br><br>But to address some of the invalid takes I've seen in the comments, I didn't go on a dmt binge for no reason at all, I had extreme anxiety, I was depressed, I was impulsive, I had all these comorbidities, I'm not a normal person and dmt certainly isn't for me, I recognize that now and back then I didn't. It's okay to admit when you messed up, and I messed up bad.<br><br>Also, I'm not blaming anyone but myself for this situation, I saw the red flags but ignored them, I knew my body wasn't ready but I did it anyway. Do not blame the drugs, do not blame this sub, those are just easy cop outs, if you fuck up, own up to it.