Any other published writers have major buyers remorse?

I used to love writing. I used to write every day. I was happy to write, excited, eager, took pride in it. I was so desperate to have a book out, it was my dream for years, years and years! And it killed me to do it. To be honest, I should have waited. I really should have. I know I rushed myself into it, and I know I will pay for it. I am already paying for it. Because I don't want to write. And I don't know why this happened. Is it this? And if so, can it be undone? I don't want this to be me forever. I really don't. I miss it. I miss how writing makes me feel. I miss the excitement, the joy, the release. I want it back. How did this happen? And can I undo it? I feel like I found out this is how it is to be a writer, and I'd rather not be one anymore. Because this kills me. And I don't know how to get it back. Anyone else feel like this?