i was so nervous today

i got a text from my best friends ex and i was wondering wtf she wanted after 3 years and then she said she wanted to go for coffee and she wanted to talk about my friend, she was saying how he was so violent and made her bleed really bad and slapping her round the face and wanted my take and i was like yeah lol i have to admit it was so nice to talk to her and i got jealous of my best friend for dating her, all i could think about was how i wanted her to be my girlfriend and i wanted to listen to her vent for hours and have her hug me and i got a hard on and no i dont think you should go after your best friends ex, you can’t just break up a relationship because of that but you have to admit it was really tempting and i wanted to tell her but i knew she wasn’t into me, and i know my best friend is going to be mad at me for talking to her and i feel really nervous about him finding out, not that i did anything wrong but it’s just a weird situation to be in and i’m having a hard time getting to sleep tonight