I purchased 200mg of 4-HO-MET and consumed it last night, here's what happened.

Some background, I'm 35 and have been a heavy drinker since I was 17. I was also addicted to meth and coke from 22-27. I continue to drink but I haven't used stimulants in 8 years. I used psychedelics in college but haven't in years. Lately I've been reading about the therapeutic effects of psychedelic drugs so here we are. I'm 185 pounds and in good physical / mental health.<br><br>I ordered 2 100mg tabs of 4-HO-MET from RC. I will admit I was stupid and didn't test one tab. I ingested both tabs with a drink and some snacks, then waited. <br><br>After about 75 minutes I began to feel a slight buzz. My legs and arms were heavy, my vision was ever so slightly blurred and my head was ever so slightly spinning. I did not feel "high", so I tried to forget about it and go on about my day. <br><br>About hour 2-3 I began to feel a deep relaxation. All my worries and concerns seemed to melt away. I had no shame, no guilt, no emotional pain to speak of. It all still seemed extremely subtle though I didn't really feel like getting up and doing anything, so I continued to bing watch TV on my phone. <br><br>Then I started to feel my mind slowly disconnecting. I couldn't focus on the TV show anymore, I couldn't even hold onto the thought of what I was watching or who the characters were. I felt as if I was floating in my room, floating above my room, floating above my house. I began to feel as if my consciousness was the only thing there was, everything else didn't matter. I remember specifically thinking to myself "this is how I feel when I'm asleep when no one is in the room, this is how I feel when no one is around, this is me". <br><br>At this point I began thinking of very basic things like who I am, why I'm here, why I'm alive, if my life is worth it. I had a forced introspection of my life, but it wasn't scary or sad, it felt like an answer to the questions I'd been asking myself lately. I remember thinking of my son, how much I love him, how much he loves me. I thought of my daughter and how much I miss her every day and how much I wish I could see her again. I felt an immense feeling of love for the people in my life and the world in general. <br><br>Then I was in the womb, or at least I felt like I was. I felt an intense feeling of safety and security. Everything was going to be okay, I was exactly where I was meant to be. I wasn't my name, I wasn't my job, I wasn't where I lived, I was me. <br><br>A few hours later I began to slowly reconnect with my surroundings. I opened my eyes and had no idea what day or time it was. I slowly came to and felt my mind return to my body. I got up, drank some water, brushed my teeth and went to bed. <br><br>I feel amazing today. Like, amazing. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted, I feel like I can tackle anything. I feel like I was just gifted a new life, a new perspective and it's beautiful and exciting. <br><br>I will be using psychedelics again, and I will be using them regularly.<br><br>Edit: Thank you all for the green arrows and kind messages. All positive comments are greatly appreciated.<br><br>Edit 2: To answer a frequent comment: I believe the substance was 4HO-MET because it came in pill form instead of powder. I don't know much about pills that can be pressed in real time, but I was under the impression that MET is a powder and can't be pressed into a pill. Knowing RC this could be completely wrong tho.