I (M30) just found myself openly staring at a waitress because she reminded me of my (F25) girlfriend who I haven’t seen in almost 3 months and I am ashamed of myself.

I’m in a long distance relationship (since January 2023) with my girlfriend (25) that is going great but it’s been almost 3 months since we last were able to see each other (we live about 3000 miles apart) and I just returned home from a trip back to where I’m from (the South) to visit family.<br><br>While back there I went out to eat at a BBQ restaurant and waited for my food. I noticed one of the waitresses was taking orders and when she walked by I took a second to look at her face and I noticed she looked a little familiar. Maybe a minute later it clicked… she looked like my girlfriend. Same nose, same hair color and style, same eyes, same smile and it threw me off because I hadn’t seen my girlfriend in almost 3 months and here I am seeing a woman who looked almost identical to her.<br><br>I don’t get infatuated with much, in fact I didn’t expect myself to act this way, but there I was staring over at this waitress every time she was in eyesight. When she walked near me it actually felt like I was seeing my girlfriend again. I felt like I was in some sort of zone, everything felt so surreal and real at the same time. It was like I was seeing a ghost of my girlfriend walking around taking orders and serving food and it’s the closest thing I’ve had to seeing my girlfriend in almost 3 months.<br><br>I didn’t realize how much I was staring until the waitress caught me looking twice and it was so embarrassing but every time she walked by I couldn’t help myself from taking a second or third look and staring. I felt like I was in some sort of daze.<br><br>I ordered my food to go and when she walked over to me and handed me my food and started walking away I felt like I needed to do something to get her attention at that moment. I work with the public and I always try to be courteous and appreciate others who work with the public, so my stupid ass told her “you know you’re really cute” just as she was walking away from me. The stupid ass part was that she clearly heard me and turned around to look at me and I felt embarrassed and so ashamed of myself. She smiled at my comment but now I feel bad because I wasn’t trying to make her uncomfortable and I wasn’t trying to hit on her but I did because it reminded me of my girlfriend.<br><br>I just feel really ashamed of myself and bad because I felt like I was betraying my girlfriend. We are committed and I know I didn’t physically or emotionally cheat on her, but it’s just not like me to act like that and I feel really ashamed of myself and I don’t know what to think of it.<br><br> Has anyone else ever experienced this?