My (29F) husband (29M) admitted that he has been using porn since we started dating and throughout our marriage despite knowing how much he despises it and hates the fact that I used to watch it regularly.

Throwaway account for obvious reasons.<br><br>After a long night of him avoiding direct questions and answering indirectly, he admitted to me that he has been using porn since we started dating and throughout our marriage. I'm completely devastated.<br><br>Here's a little background so you can understand why this is a big issue for both of us.<br><br>I used to watch porn a lot before I met him (we are both 29 now). I watched it regularly since I was 17. I often used to feel guilty about this habit and wanted to stop but I couldn't. When I met him, I decided to stop watching it for good. He used to talk about how much he hates porn, how it is dehumanizing and how he thinks it is just a tool to objectify women.<br><br>I debated whether I should tell him about my porn-watching past or not. I decided to tell him the truth (this was before we started dating officially) because I didn't want to start our relationship based on a lie and I wanted him to know that I had quit watching it for good.<br><br>When I told him, he was understandably upset but he said he valued our relationship more and that he wasn't going to let this incident affect our relationship. We have been together for two years now.<br><br>The issue is that I recently found out that he has been using porn regularly since we started dating. Despite knowing that I have a tendency to use it regularly, he never mentioned anything about it to me. I feel betrayed, deceived and hurt.<br><br>He's been using it regularly and telling me that he can't quit. I told him how it made me feel, that it hurts me knowing he is regularly consuming something that he despises, that this is disrespecting me because even though I had stopped watching porn, he didn't stop but told me how much he hated it.<br><br>He said he is sorry and wants to stop. I told him that I trust him to stop and that if he needs help, he should go to therapy. He doesn't want to do that and wants to do it his own way.<br><br>This has left me shaken and feeling betrayed. I don't know how to handle this situation.<br><br>Has anyone in the same situation managed to get over something like this?