I'm considering suicide but not before i kill some people

EDIT: well for me as much as i'd like to hurt the people responsible for making my life so miserable, i will spare them.<br><br>I'm just really fed up with everything.<br><br>I'm just a shy ugly monkey with glasses who doesn't fit in anywhere. Ever since i was kid i was bullied and i was never liked by anyone. I'm tired of constantly being depressed, anxious and lonely. I feel like i'm just existing for the sake of existing. I hate the fact that i wasn't born with the gift of being liked by everyone. I hate that i have autism and i hate that i'm poor. I hate that i have to rely on others to help me all the time. I hate that everyone i meet doesn't like me. I hate myself so much. I hate my family for making me this way. I hate the fact that i'm jobless and i have to depend on others for money. I had a crush on a girl for years but she never liked me back. That's why i hate myself so much now.<br><br>i'm just really f**ked up in the head and i'm acting weird to everyone around me. I feel terrible for it. I want to hurt the people around who never liked me for it. I want to show them how much they hurt me and i want to hurt them for rejecting me. I'm just a disappointment to everyone always and this makes me angry and hateful. I'm not angry at strangers though, just the people around who don't like me. that's why i'm considering suicide but not before i get some payback.