I never wanted kids, but I desperately want my life back.

Currently I’m in the process of adopting, which i never would have thought I would be doing, but now I can’t picture my life without her. <br><br>My wife was an elementary school teacher and I work at a 12 hour a day office job. The first few months of lockdown were honestly some of the best times of my life. I got to have my wife home every day, and she got to be with me. We got to go on long walks, have lunch together, and get the house cleaner than it ever has been.<br><br>I didn’t think it was possible for us to be more in love, but it happened.<br><br>Then, schools closed. The first week was hell. We both had to continue working from home, but our schedules weren’t aligned. We were two ships passing in the night.<br><br>She’s gotten a little better at finding time for us to eat lunch together, but by and large, it feels like I have a roommate I never see. <br><br>She’s constantly busy grading papers, and responding to emails. She’s constantly taking online meetings. I can’t even leave the room without being interrupted by her meeting audio. I never get to spend time with her. <br><br>Of all the luxuries in the world, none bring me more joy than my wife. I never thought that I was a materialistic person, but I’d be lying if I said i didn’t miss having her more than I miss having social contact with friends. <br><br>I just want my wife back. I want our lives back. I want our house to not feel so cold.