I just told my mom I hate her.

About a month ago I came home from work one night to find that I couldn't get in my front door. The lock had been changed and my mom refused to let me in. She told me the only way to get back in was to agree to stay with my dad and not come back home. I was 20 at the time. She took my phone and ID and wallet from me, took my car and keys, left me stranded on the street. Luckily I was able to get to a friends house and get money from him to get to my grandpas house which was the safest place to go being so rural with no phone or ID. I've been there for a month now. I am in the process of filing for emancipation but she keeps trying to reach out to me to "fix things". Today I finally decided I'd had enough. I told her I hated her, I never want to see her or hear from her ever again, I don't want to know or care about her and that she never was a mother to me.<br><br>I feel so... I don't know what I feel. All my life my mom was the only person I'd ever trusted. She was my rock. She took care of me. But now that she's gone I feel like I never really knew her. I feel like the whole time she just made me think she loved me but she was just manipulating me. Even thinking about it right now I'm being told I'm overreacting and that she was a good mother and that I'm just being ungrateful. But I know I'm not. I know she was never a good mother. I know I'm right in this. But I still feel like something's missing. I feel so alone on this. Even my dad and grandparents don't think she's a bad person. They just think she was misguided. They still want me to have a relationship with her. But I can't.<br><br>I just want to move on with my life. I don't want to keep reliving this.