Is Utilitarianism a moral fascism?

I can't get this out of my head. As a utilitarian, you have to make decisions that are for the greater good. If you made a decision that you thought would benefit the greater good but it ultimately didn't, you failed as a utilitarian, even if you could not have known. You should make a decision that benefits the greater good, even if it means that the minority will suffer. <br><br>Even if utilitarianism is correct, it seems like a terrible burden to live under the weight of utilitarianism. If I work a job that I enjoy, then I should feel guilty if my job does not benefit the greater good. If I am a artist, I should be an artist for the greater good. I have no individual agency if I am a utilitarian. If I do anything that does not benefit the greater good, then I should feel guilty.<br><br>Also, the greater good is unknowable. We can't know what would be the best course of action for the greater good. We can't have complete knowledge of the consequence of an action. So, in reality, utilitarianism is used to justify whatever selfish decision you want to make. What's best for my family and friends is what is best for the greater good.