I just got off a date with the most beautiful girl and I can’t stop thinking about how much I am dreading Christmas

I went out with this girl last night and she was perfect. She was so beautiful, bubbly, amazing to talk to, etc. We really just clicked. I had a great time.<br><br>I came home, went to bed, then woke up. I was expecting to feel great. I just went on a great date with someone I really like, we really connected and it seemed like she likes me.<br><br>Instead, I woke up and I just started worrying about Christmas. I hate Christmas. I hate the commercialism, I hate the food, I hate the decorations, I hate the lights, I hate the music, I hate the presents, I hate it all.<br><br>I can’t stand this time of year. I wish it would never come, but if it did, I wish I could just sleep through it and wake up at the end of the month when it’s all over. I am dreading it.<br><br>My extended family are perfect because they don’t bother me. If I don’t want to come, they don’t care.<br><br>My parents on the other hand are the problem. They are so pushy and annoying about it. I hate going, but if I don’t go, it will be WW3. <br><br>Last year, I went on a date with a girl who loved Christmas and she was really excited for us to spend our first Christmas together. That was my worst fear. I was so happy when she just stopped replying out of the blue. She had a lot going on, we weren’t exclusive and I just assumed she was busy. I knew she wasn’t ignoring me because I would get occasional messages. It was weird, but I just let it go.<br><br>I saw her again a few months ago and it was clear she didn’t want to see me. I asked her what happened and she basically told me she could tell I didn’t want to be around her so she just backed off. We both agreed we were really attracted to each other but she just didn’t want to put in the effort for us to be together, and I honestly understood because I felt the same.<br><br>This girl I went out with last night is basically the same, if not more. She is so beautiful, bubbly, amazing to talk to and has a great personality. She is so smart and has a really important and impressive job. I can already tell she just makes me feel so much better about myself and she is perfect for me.<br><br>But she loves Christmas, and I hate it. I know I can’t let this turn into a relationship because I can already see the writing on the wall. She will want us to spend Christmas together and I will be stuck going or else I will be a ‘grinch’ and ruin the holiday season for her.<br><br>I don’t give AF about Christmas and I don’t care if I ruin it for her. It’s a terrible time of year, and if she can’t see that, fuck her.<br><br>It’s just so annoying. I went on a good date last night and instead of enjoying it and being excited about it, I’m dreading the holiday season and I already know this relationship is going to be over before it even began.