I dislike saying this but... I have a crush on a female coworker

I've been training this female coworker the past month. She's got these big white eyes and she's always smiling. She always paces her voice at a nice pace despite knowing my hearing is bad and she always makes sure I know what she's saying. It's hard to explain. I've even had a conversation with this girl about what anime shows are the best and the final answer we came to was attack on titan. I've written a list of things I like about her that I want to tell her. I just want to get to know her more. I think about her when I'm not at work but then I realize I've never been with a person in that way before. I know I just need to talk to her but it feels like I'm in a dream. I've been overthinking a lot of what she does. I like creampies and I keep thinking about them when I think about her and I realize that I'd probably have to just do a vanilla with her because I've never been in a relationship and I don't want to lose my chance with her.<br><br>I feel really conflicted about this because I feel like she's just a coworker that I should keep a distance from. She's older than me, but not by much, and married with kids. I don't even know how I've fallen for her so quickly but I just can't seem to wake up from it. I've always thought women were beautiful and I've always been into the idea of relationships but I've never been in one myself. I've never even kissed a girl before. I don't know what to do and I just want to know if in my situation, the best thing would be to pursue my feelings or not.