If I Waited Until Marriage I Will Be Old

I wanted to wait until the age of 30, I know it may seem odd that an incel would believe in waiting until marriage but I did. The idea to me seems perfect, being able to share this moment with my partner and to be able to do it with the magic in the air and lights and with a white wedding dress and the sun shining.<br><br>It's now too late now though, I've spent most of my life alone and the idea of waiting anymore is far too much to bear. More importantly though it's impossible to wait until marriage when you aren't even able to date then you're not going to wait until marriage and I see people in their old age living with someone before marriage and I don't think that's right. I'm the only person that thinks like this and when I'm 60 years old I don't want the thought on my mind of a missed opportunity.<br><br>It's not the same for men though, I did used to think that men are built to last and that we can have sex with someone until the day we die. But if I'm being honest I'm struggling to have sex now and I'm only 37, I have no energy and when I am able to have sex I can barely finish because I'm too tired and sometimes I'm not able to finish at all. I can't wait anymore because I don't know how long I have left, especially with my health declining.