I am dreading throwing myself into dating now

I'm a 32 year old woman who has just gotten out of a year long relationship that ended because he wanted kids and I didn't.<br><br>I am absolutely done with kids. I am not changing my mind. I am so done with even the idea of it, I would even go so far as to say that I despise the idea of raising kids. I do not want them.<br><br>But now I am alone and I have to start dating again, and I know that as I get closer to someone, the inevitable question has to come up. I'm already dreading the date where that question will come up. I'm worried that it's going to be a deal breaker in the long run. I'm worried that I'm going to invest a lot of time and love and effort into someone who thinks that having kids is the be all end all. I'm worried that I'm going to have to break up with someone that I love but who sees having a family as the meaning of life.<br><br>This is really hard for me. I don't want to have to sacrifice being in a relationship. I don't want to have to pick between being in a relationship and not having children. I want both.<br><br>Or more specifically, I want the first but not the second.<br><br>I'm so annoyed and worried and stressed about this. I feel like I'm being punished for not wanting kids. I feel like I'm being punished for being a woman. I feel like this is incredibly unfair.