I just woke up to an email about a shooting at my school and I am scared.

I work on the west coast. I am supposed to be at school in 2 hours and I just got an email at 5am about a threat to our school. I am afraid. I am stressed. I take pride in being able to protect my students. I am doubting that I can even do that. I am a special education teacher and several of my students do not have the emotional regulation to deal with an event like this. Three of my students are non-verbal. I have a students who is still teaching my other students “stranger danger”. I have not actually heard the audio but I wonder how he will respond if we have to evacuate the room. I also know that the shooter is still at large. I am scared. I am sad. I am worried. I am concerned for my students and my colleagues.<br><br>I honestly I don’t know what to do. I am considering staying home. I know that I need to protect my students as they are my responsibility and I can’t let them down. I know how much they depend on me. I am their safe haven, and I don’t know if I can be that person today. I am truly traumatized. I am not okay. I feel like there is no end in sight. This is exhausting and I am tired. I am tired of the trauma. I am tired of the stress. I am tired of feeling like I can’t do my job properly.<br><br>If you have been through a similar event, what did you do? How did you respond to it? What did your school do? Please let me know. I need advice.