It's time for me to settle down

I debated deleting this, but figured I might as well post it. I won't be at all surprised if you are livid, but I'm hoping that some of you can show me some empathy.<br><br>I first joined r/blackpill in early 2018 while still in high school. The chamber was an oasis for me, a place where I could escape the need to hide my pain while maintaining friendships. Before joining here, I felt like I didn't have anywhere to go. I was already the weird kid, and once my classmates found out about my birthday present from my mom, the answer was clear. I wasn't even a "friend zone" - I was a non-entity. When I joined here, I was hurting, but I was proud of the notion that we were in the same boat. Whenever I felt bad for myself, I would come here. We were a community that was going through some of the most painful parts of life together. We were all going to power through it and make it out the other side.<br><br>Over the past six months, I realized that I am leaving this part of my life behind me. I still look back on my time in high school as the darkest period of my life, but it is no longer part of my present. For the first time in my life, I am able to go out without being self-conscious about how I look. I have friends I feel comfortable opening up to, something I never felt like I could with my friends in high school. I have, for the first time in my life, at least a few friends who I feel like would care if something happened to me.<br><br>Over the past couple of weeks, I've been reflecting on my time here. At first, I at least partially felt like leaving because the good times in my life made it feel like I no longer belonged. But, after a few tear-filled nights, I realized that my life is good now. Many of my firsts were with people from my school, and the only friends I have from my time here are people I met on other subs. I have met so many new experiences this past year, and I feel like I am in a position to finally *live.*<br><br>It is time for me to move on with my life. I won't be deleting my account, and I'll still lurk here from time to time. I'll always be grateful for this community. I hope that you can all have better lives. I will think about my time here fondly. Thank you, everyone.<br><br>*Edit: I'm sorry if this seemed like a victory post - I didn't realize that's how it would be seen.*<br><br>Goodbye.