The boys really don’t.

I’ve been sat on Facebook for 10 minutes staring at a girl I had a crush on in secondary school and I’ve come to the conclusion that boys are so fucking stupid. <br><br>I’m 22 now, she’s 22 too. She was pretty when we were teenagers, but now she’s bloody gorgeous. I was sat there just looking at each photo of her and thinking, ‘why did I never message her back then, how did I not do this? I was so blind, I’m such an idiot.’ Heck I’d even say it now. <br><br>It’s funny looking back at it because I was so stupid. But to a certain extent I’m not sure I regret it. It’s probably for the better I didn’t tell her, it’s probably for the best. <br><br>But I’m still blinded by my love for her. I don’t really express it to people but I’ve had a lot of different crushes since I was a teenager and none of them ever last. None of them are like my crush on her. I don’t know what to do. <br><br>And it’s not like I can message her and say hi, or try to friend her. I think she’d just see me as that little awkward guy from school, I’m not really sure how to approach it. <br><br>Also I stupidly got my heart set on a girl that doesn’t live in my country. Like what even is that? <br><br>I’m not really sure how to end this post, everything I’ve written has been a mess, but I just feel stupid. Stupid for not trying harder, stupid for still holding onto the thought of her. I just feel like I’d be better off in life if I let go. But I don’t know how.