Am I an incel?

I'm 26, never had a gf. <br><br>I'm far from the stereotypical incel: I'm fairly attractive and in good shape, I have a higher than average income. Everyone at work likes me, I have friends, I have friends with gfs, and most people think I'm charming, funny, or a good conversationalist. <br><br>Married women have asked me out on dates. I was a cheerleader in high school (don't ask me how, it was a weird time). I've gone on dates. <br><br>But I've never had a dating relationship longer than two weeks. I can't attend events without panicking. I've never been able to approach women. I'm terrified of hook up culture and everyone's desire to be in a relationship. <br><br>I've always been like this. I'm tired of trying to kill this anxiety with hobbies, sports, and focusing on school. <br><br>I'm not angry with women; I just feel like I'm the only one who is single and alone.