You were all right about self improvement not working

I didn’t go hard after adding muscle on me, but it’s not like I’ve stopped going to the gym either. Now I’m 70lbs heavier than I was when I was 17. Today someone said I was cute and it felt awesome. I’ve never felt like that before. Now I feel like I’m worthy of love from other people. Not that it lasted but I was going to ask her out to dinner with me to get to know her better. I got cold feet and told her I was busy with school and I got home. Then I realized I could’ve asked her out. Now I’m regretting it. <br>I’ve never felt so wanted in my life until now. I’ve realized that I’m never going to be what I consider attractive to women (6 pack abs, tall, etc) but it doesn’t matter. I’m still a man and should just ask women out if I’m attracted to them. But I’m too much of a coward because of the black pill.<br><br>Edit: wow didn’t think this was going to get this many replies. I appreciate everyone who’s given me advice. I feel bad for not being able to respond to everyone but I do read them all. Also, for clarification I am 21 years old. Yes, I know I’m still young and I do know this. But it doesn’t stop me from feeling like a coward. I know that I’m probably not going to be the same person I am now in 5, 10, 20 years. But it will still be me. It’s just that I’ve tried so many times in the past to ask girls out and have had no luck. It’s hard to not give up