I just want to die

I’m not into my wife, I’m 35 and I’m in the process of divorcing her.<br><br>I’ve gained weight and I just feel like a failure. I don’t even want to find a new partner. I just want to die. I wake up everyday and pretend like I’m not sad and I lie about how everything going to be alright and that soon I’ll find a girl who’s actually into me. I’m fucking done with this life.<br><br>My wife hates that I have a small dick and that I’m ugly. I haven’t had any luck with other girls. I just feel worthless and I feel like I’m a failure.