Wanted to be a dad so bad... until I had kids.

I'm a foster parent to two kids (brother and sister, 1yo and 3yo). There was a chance we were going to adopt them, but both of us agreed that even if we couldn't adopt them, we'd still keep them until they were older and could be placed with another family. We've been looking after them since the beginning of October.<br><br>This last week has been rough. The 1yo has been so fussy, and the 3yo has been throwing fits and waking up in the night. She also had an accident in her bed, and we had to bathe her at 2am. I was up cleaning until 3am, and had to get up again at 7am.<br><br>I woke up today, and was just like "I don't want to be a dad." I'm exhausted. We've had these kids for less than 3 months, and I feel like I've aged 5 years. Being a foster parent is hard, but I feel like this is what it's like for all parents.<br><br>I love these kids. I'd buy them the world if I could. But I'm just so tired.<br><br>We're going to step down from being foster parents once these two are placed with a new family.