I don't think I can ever love again

I was dating a man, it was going good, the relationship needed a little work, but we both had high hopes for the future.<br><br>He told me he couldn't live without me, but I had to leave him for a little while to go back to my home town and take care of some legal issues.<br><br>He told me that when I came back, it would be like the first time we met all over again, and that the spark we felt at the moment they met me would reignite. <br><br>I left, and I felt like I ripped my own heart out. I was crying so much, and I couldn't focus on anything but what we shared. I made plans for my future, leaving him out of them but thinking about him the whole time. <br><br>I needed a place to live, so I went back to the only place they can offer me a job, which happens to be my hometown. I had to go back the day before Valentine's day. I had written him a letter, and I wanted to give it to him on V.day. <br><br>He came to the airport to say goodbye, and I gave him the letter. I was trying to be strong, and I was crying, but I felt a little better at the end of the day. I saw him one more time before I left, and I told him I loved him. He said he loved me too. <br><br>The next morning I was so excited about my trip, when I got home, I received a message from him saying he missed me and loved me. <br><br>The whole day was ok, I was heartbroken and emotional, but I felt a little better. The days went by, and I didn't hear from him, not even once. I couldn't sleep because of the pain, and the heartbreak. <br><br>It's been over a month since I left, and I haven't heard from him, not even once. I couldn't sleep again, I cried about him one more time, and when I looked at the clock it was 3:33. <br><br>I felt a chill run down my spine. I saw him one more time before I left, and we met at 3:33. He told me he loved me, and I told him I loved him too. <br><br>I know fate brought us together, and I know I did the right thing when I left. But I still miss him. I felt a heartbreak I had never felt before, when I was gone.<br><br>I don't think I can ever love the same way I loved him. I felt his love, and it was the most amazing thing I ever felt. I felt his love, and it made me understand what true love is.<br><br>I don't think I can ever love the same way I loved him. I needed his love to feel whole, and I needed him to feel alive. He was the spark that made me feel alive.<br><br>I feel empty, and I feel dead. I don't know if I can love again. <br><br>I know we were meant to be together, and he was meant to be my soulmate. I know it.