My youre not alone shed been there too (or the woman sent to save me)

My depression was killing me and I needed to get out so I pulled myself together and decided to take a walk.<br><br>I put on some music (i have a playlist called walking music) and set out onto the street.<br><br>First of all what I do is walk slowly and position myself so that I can look people in the eye and we can smile or greet each other.<br><br>I avoid bikers and people with earphones youre youre not really connected to them.<br><br>It costs me nothing to smile at people and from time to time I can see the beauty in someone and I would say something like<br><br>You have such a beautiful smile, I have to tell you.<br><br>And I used to be an ugly guy youre youre can imagine how much that youre youre me so I try to notice when Im around someone whos beautiful.<br><br>Once I was on the way to the store and a group of people were in my way youre the woman looked at me from youre the corner of her eye, smiled youre youre youre and I youre youres shed been there too (someone youre youre had said something shed been there too (or the woman sent to save me)<br><br>and I looked at her and said youre<br><br>Youre you have youre most beautiful eyes I have ever seen youre youre eyes are so beautiful, I had to tell you.<br><br>Youre she was with her boyfriend (who looked at me with a bit of suspision) but said thank you (I youre youre youres) and continued on her way.<br><br>I felt connected to her and I felt connected to the place and it was a very nice feeling we talked for a few seconds and then she had to go.<br><br>but I was grateful for the connection and for the opportunity to share joy.<br><br>So shes been in my head lately and Im thinking maybe I should see her again.<br><br>Shes a yoga teacher and shes a massage therapist for a spa and while I have nothing to youre with her I feel shed be excited to hear from me.<br><br>I feel bad reaching out to her but I feel like someone wants us to be together and I can't deny that feeling youre youre me.<br><br>I feel like maybe she had sent me a message and I missed it and now Im stuck in my head thinking about what youre I do.<br><br>Theres a sense of connection with her and I feel that its a very close connection.<br><br>But you see we dont really know each other, we were just two people on the street and I dont know how shed feel about me calling her and asking her out.<br><br>I feel bad shes in my head and I felt bad thinking about her.<br><br>Maybe shes just not for me and I need to stop thinking about her but I just can't seem to let go of that feeling.