I'm not even mad at women anymore.

2023-07-25 18:27<br>I'm not even mad at women anymore. I don't even feel like talking to them. They're so annoying and boring. Every single one of them. <br><br>I feel like I've never even had a real conversation with a woman in my life. The few times I've tried, it goes from 0-100 in a matter of seconds, and they go right into making me feel bad. I don't even feel like I can even speak my mind around them. I don't like talking to them, I don't like looking at them, I don't even feel like being in the same room as them. They're so annoying. <br><br>It's not even like a lot of men are better. But I at least feel like I can have a conversation. I don't feel like a weirdo. They don't look at me like I'm a freak.<br><br>When I'm out walking, I try to make eye contact with people, just to be friendly, but the women will just look away and stare at the ground. The men will at least look back and nod. Women will just stare at the ground like I'm some kind of freak.<br><br>It makes me so angry that they get to choose who they want to be with, and I get to choose nothing. I have no choice. I get to be alone for my whole life. I have nobody to talk to. I have nobody to share my life with. I have nobody to be in a relationship with. I have nobody to be friends with. I'm all alone in this shithole of a world, and I don't even get to choose. I don't get to choose if I want to be lonely. I don't get to choose if I want to be alone. It's forced on me. Every day of my life, I have to be alone. I have to be lonely. I have to be dirty and smelly. I have to be homeless. I have to be a burden. I have to be a loser.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit:<br><br>Some of you are saying I should just ignore them, and move on with my life, but the problem is I feel like they're everywhere. Every single day of my life, I have to walk past them, I have to see them, I have to hear them. It's everywhere. It's like they're following me. I can't go anywhere without seeing them. If I stay at home, I have to listen to them scream and bang on the walls and ceiling. If I go for a walk, I have to listen to them laugh and giggle with each other. If I use public transit, I have to sit next to them and listen to them talk on their phones all day. They're everywhere. Every day, I have to be confronted with them. I don't even feel like I can leave my house anymore. It's like they're suffocating me. Every breath I take, I have to be confronted with them. Every time I leave my house, I have to be confronted with them.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>Edit 2:<br><br>I deleted my last comment because I didn't want to write a whole ass paragraph.<br><br>To whoever made the comment asking if I've never had sex or been in a relationship, the answer is no. I've never even held hands with a woman or even had a girlfriend. I've never had sex. I've never even had a real date. I've been on a few dates, but it's never gone anywhere. It's always been a waste of time.<br><br>To whoever made the comment about women not liking losers, I'm not a loser. I have a good-paying job, I take care of myself, I have hobbies, I'm smart. I'm a nice person. I have a lot to offer. I'm not a loser. The only thing I'm missing is confidence and self-respect.