I met the man of my dreams, but my life is lonely.

I've been seeing the man of my dreams for a year and a half. He's everything I truly want in a partner, a friend, and a soulmate. I met him at my job. I was a maid at a resort in the mountains. He was a holiday maker from the city. He is in his 40s and I am in my 30s. I was the happiest I had ever been, until I moved from my home in the mountains to the city. I thought I was the happiest two months ago when we moved in together. He is truly a caring and attentive person. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that he loves me. I have seen him with his friends and family, he is always attentive and caring, he loves everyone around him so truly. I think that is why this is so hard. I know he loves me and doesn't see the unhappiness I have. Today, he told me how proud he was of me for getting a new job after such a long time in the mountains. And he took me out for dinner to celebrate. He was truly proud. I was excited too. I spent the whole afternoon out with him and he bought me two skirts for work. He took me to dinner at one of my favourite restaurants. He absolutely took care of me. So why is my life so lonely? I have felt lonely my whole life. When I first moved to the city, I was so grateful for him. I was so relieved that i wasnt completely alone in the city. But he goes to work in the morning and I am left alone in our new apartment. He has a great job, he works in a big company. I was in school, but I was lucky to get a job working in a nearby school. The other day I was so excited that he was going to come home early and we could take the dog for a walk, but he left me a message saying he was going to meet up with a friend instead. I was so lonely that night. I was so happy he has friends to go out with but I spent the whole night alone. I feel so guilty for feeling lonely. He has tried to include me in his life. He took me out with him last weekend, to meet up with other friends. He is so proud to call me his girlfriend. He shows me off to everyone and I know he loves me. I know I'm not alone in the world. I have friends from back home, I have been messaging them every day since I moved. I have been begging them to visit me and I have been hoping that I can visit home. I felt relieved when I heard they were coming to visit. But I feel so much pressure to show them the city and a great time. I feel responsible for choosing the restaurants and taking them to the sights. I feel like I need to entertain them and make sure they are happy. I know they love me and I know they are just coming to visit me. They don't care what we do. But I know I have to make them happy. I continue to feel lonely. I felt lonely all the time in the mountains but I was so happy. It was a beautiful place to live. I missed it every day since I left. I go for a walk every morning with the dog. But I just feel lonely. I recently started going to the park and reading a book on a bench before work. It makes me feel relieved. I feel like I am doing something for myself. I feel like I can slow down a bit. But I truly feel lonely. There is nothing that relieves me from the feeling of loneliness.