My brother disappeared after he found out that I was a stripper

When I was in my early 20s I got a job as a stripper to support myself and my young daughter. It is a fast way to earn money and it pays well, do not judge me. I do not have kids to take care of but my brother looked at me in a brotherly way and took care of me, while my parents were distant from us. <br><br>He always thought of me as a flower that needed to be protected. He was always very protective of me (as a brother) and I loved him for it. When he found out that I was a stripper he stopped visiting me and talked to me. He disappeared completely and moved to a different city. I tried reaching out to him but he never replied.<br><br>The reason I am posting this here is because I know that he thought of me in a sexual way. I saw the way he looked at me. I also had sexual feelings for him. I always thought about the possibilities of us being together. I loved him. He is my soulmate. <br><br>I wish he was a more open-minded person and did not see me as a brother, I wish he was a man that knew I am an adult and can make my own choices. <br><br>I can not afford to think about this anymore, I have a daughter to take care of. I have to move on with my life.