My biggest fear is being old and alone

It’s not that I think I’m just going to be old and alone. I’m 19 currently. It’s just that I think bc I’m so introverted I’m just going to be the only one out of my friends that will end up alone. I can’t relate to anyone so I have no social skills, I feel like I’m only liked out of pity bc my friends know how lonely I am. I’ve been lonely ever since I was born I’d say. I’ve always been a shy kid and it’s carried on to my adult life. I just worry that I’m going to end up falling behind my friends as they find their own spouses and then I’m going to end up being alone with no friends bc I was never socially accepted.<br><br>Sorry if this is a ramble but I just needed to get this off of my chest bc I’ve been thinking about it heavily recently. I also don’t make very good first impressions so that doesn’t help.