I'm tired

I'm a 14 year old boy. I love helping people. I'm a boy scout, I help at church, I give my friends rides. I just want to help.<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of hearing that I'm a rapist. I'm tired of people thinking I'm a sick, perverted monster. I've never even kissed a girl.<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of being asked at church whether I'm a "ladies man". I'm tired of being told I need to "get out there" and "get some action" or that I need to "score" or "get some".<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of the 20-30 boys at school who have hit a girl at some point being used as an excuse to treat all of us like shit. I'm tired of this double standard where a girl will get in a fight and hit a guy and nothing will happen to her, but as soon as a guy hits a girl he's expelled and charged. I'm tired of being told "You would date a girl who hits you?" "Why do you hang out with a girl who hits you?" "Do you like being abused" about my friend who likes to punch people in the shoulder as a joke.<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of my friends being told they're sick and disgusting for being polyamorous. I'm tired of my friends being told they're sick and disgusting for being in a relationship with a 18 year old when they're 17. I'm tired of my friends being told it's their fault their girlfriend was raped because they were dating her.<br><br>I'm tired. I'm tired of people saying it's my fault I'm depressed. I'm tired of people saying that "it's not that bad for guys" and that "I have my pride" as if either of those things would help with my depression in any way. I'm tired of being told I need to "man up". I'm not good enough, I'm too ugly to ever find love and I just want to help others, but nobody cares.<br><br>I'm tired.