I know friends don't have to last forever, but it still hurts.

Had a friend from middle school who found me today and I quickly realized that both of us are dealing with the same emotional and psychological problems. It was like looking into a mirror. <br><br>Neither of us have any friends.<br><br>Both of us found comfort in a sport, but because of both of our mental health deteriorating and getting beat up by life we couldn't play them anymore.<br><br>I'm 17 now, he's 19 now but, he had the same luck as me when friends go. They start nice, but they stop once they either realize that I have no social skills because of my anxiety or they simply stop placing importance on me.<br><br>I'm friends with one person, but she had a lot going on in her life and she's more friends with her friends than she is with me.<br><br>It hurts. I honestly don't think I can ever open up anymore to people and I'm better off alone. <br><br>Even though we were only children when we became friends, I remember feeling a deep connection to him and, it's not like him becoming my friend was a one time thing. We talked a lot and, we were really friends. <br><br>I feel like I lost a part of me. <br><br>I know that I should leave the house and meet people, but I feel like I've tried everything. I've joined clubs, signed up for sports, tried to help out my community, even joined school activities that I don't really care for. <br><br>I just feel hopeless at this point.