Admit it, we're all a little nervous with how the news is of the drug Gabapentin.

It seems like this drug is on the rise of being abused. I think we can all agree that we don't want to see it get banned. I think this drug is better then SSRI anti depressants. It helps people who have depression, anxiety, and PTSD, and much more. I can admit I have been using this drug for a while now and it has helped me and continues to do so. I don't like to abuse my drugs, I like to think of it as heavy use, but not abuse. I don't take more then my doctor prescribed for me. She seems to care about her patients and wants the best for them. I also asked her one time, "how much Gabapentin would it take to kill me" and she shut me down quick. She told me that she doesn't tolerat suicidal patients and that if I EVER said some like that to her again she would call the authorities and they'll take me away to a place where doctors can help me. I can admit I thought that was a little fucked up. She knows that I have PTSD and I have had suicidal thoughts and I told her a few times that I was depressed. I was just wondering how much I had to take in order to die and she thought I was going to take that amount and kill myself. I think it was in my mind to do that, but I'm doctors patient and I expect them to care about me and not judge me. So, She can fuck off. She doesn't know anything about how it is to be in my shoes. I never got to answer my question, but I did find out for myself how much it does take to kill yourself from it. So much to where I thought I was going to die. I really did think I was going to die that night and I thought my boyfriend would get in trouble for it. He tried to do a whole 1800mg and he can't even handle 900mg. I don't mind taking higher doses then what I'm prescribed. My doctor prescribed me 300mg, 2 times a day, and I found out that the most I can take in a day and not feel sick is 1900mg. She knows how much I sell of my gabapentin, so yeah, fuck that lady and fuck you if you work for the DEA.